Does anyone else deal with this besides me?
As I shift my focus toward living in this moment (e.g., experiencing the simultaneous sounds of an across-the-street neighbor’s power mower, bird-twitter near the porch, my husband clearing his throat in the next room, the quiet ticking of the dining room clock, and the sensations of the familiar comfort of this overstuffed chair under my butt and behind my back), how do I square that with my up-to-very-recently desires for lots more people to discover/read my blog, finding a way to market my mandala drawings, and figuring out whether my intuitive painting projects might have some sort of value (not necessarily financial) to others? All of which indicate some degree of ego-involvement on my part.
In other words, is it possible to live–fully engaged–in this exact moment, releasing my hopes and dreams for the future, and living with intention but without expectation?
Or maybe the actual question is how do I learn to live with intention but without expectation?
And maybe another question is how does this work for artists and other creative people?
Thought I’d just throw that out there for the folks who are far more experienced and better versed in mindful living than I.
Meanwhile, it’s a fantastically gorgeous spring day here. The sun is illuminating the leaves of the climbing rose into a semi-transparent yellow-green (which I can see through the high window of the living room), every shade of freesia is festooning the front yard, and the kittens next door are dancing their dirty little pawprints across the hood of my car. Does it get any better than this?
My needs are simple, my wants are few. At least in this moment.
(By the way, my apologies to any readers who, based on the title of this post, might have expected some meaningful mention of, commentary about, or misguided obeisance to the (Lady) Gaga, other than that I am bemused by her fame and her following. So any elucidation on the subject is welcomed here . . . )